it’s me again. Haven’t talked to you in a long time but so so much happend this past few months. It’s crazy and amazing and I still don’t know how this all happend to me. The one thing I can say today is, that I am absolutly happy. After two years I can say that I am happy again and I still can’t believe this. I started university in October and that was when I met the most wonderful people in the world. Oh you would love them! They entered the room and I know that I would never be alone again. They were the missing piece I needed to believe that this life is going to be fantastic. Amazing and brilliant and crazy and wonderful. They give me the feeling of being loved so much everywhere I go. And when I met those guys I somehow found you again. You are with me all the way and I know you are proud of me. It’s this feeling I get inside sometimes when I think that I can’t do a thing today and then this feeling hits me and I know you are with me. After two years you really found your way back. It’s like we all needed that time to accept the fact that you are gone. Not just me and Mum and my little brother (who isn’t that little anymore, but I’m sure you already saw that). Everybody. And we all came to the point we accepted it and we let you in in our lives again as the angel you are now. I can see you in the sunrise in the morning, I can hear you in the music I hear, feel you in the wind. You are everywhere around us. And it makes me so happy. I got my life back and I owe it all to those people who showed me that life goes on. I owe it to my friends at home, who I will never not love. To my friends at university who are the craziest people I know. I owe it to that special boy who brigthens up my days since a few weeks. I know you would really like him. There is no need to put up you boy-defence-system we always joked about. I’m thankful for you that you send me there. You guided me to this very moment Dad and I’m free now. Free of my past and I can start all over again.
I still miss you everyday, no matter that you are always with me. I’ll talk to you soon Dad.<3